Sunday, 19 June 2011

Atomic Dream Synchronicity

Hi all,

I had a dream last night of being stuck in a house due to an atomic fallout from a nuclear issue / was clear in the dream we had to stay in the house for 18 days.   It was one of the big vivid dreams where everything was as real as this 3d reality, and where much was remembered.

I recorded it as I do all my medium to big dreams, and carried on with my day (teaming up with the wasps and daddy long legs against the horse flies amongst other things).

Later on a friend emailed me about a possible (false flag) terror attack in Berlin later this month, and as I have predicted a (false flag) terror attack not far from the summer solstice I decided to spend five minutes investigating this.

I typed into Google "berlin terror attack 2011"  and most hits said the word "Nuclear."  

Then I typed into Google "berlin nuclear terror attack 2011" and it returned about 4 pages of (related) hits towards this theory.

Here is one related youtube video I plucked out at random amongst many.  Before viewing note that I am not endorsing this theory (yet), nor am I peddling fear, I am at the moment just passing on a couple of synchronicities.

Note that this video, and other online info point toward a football match that kicks off at.....18:00.   1+8= 9, which Qabalistically is Yesod (dreams, psychic, synchronicity).

As explained in my book ToW, synchronicities are very real, and something that can even be "chased down."  
One thing is for sure, we leave home when we dream and go elsewhere.



ps when publishing this blog, much disappeared, and i was logged out of blogger.
pps if you are interested more in the theory, there is a 5 parter here (German and Spanish).


update:  I watched the 5 part documentary and found it very interesting in places (especially part 4).  Many people are aware 9/11 was symbolised in many hollywood productions prior the event (see wayki wayki), and there is much evidence that this is happening for 26.06.11.   Even my 18 came up again in the documentary from a recent Doctor Who programme.

One does not need Spanish or German to get the gist of the documentary, and I think it wise to know about this information because then one can see how it resonates with the self. 


Monday, 13 June 2011

Into the busy hologram....

Hi all,

Recently I went out for a couple of days into the the mountain and into the modern world.   Most thing to "go out" is to have "fun" and make yourself as "happy" as you can, but I am sure the whole game is to objectively see the self as it really is, and the world as it really is - as this negates any shadow (internal or external) suppression that can gasket into and through the collective (creating events or internal issues).   Concentrating on happy thoughts for its own sake (love and lighters etc) could even be accused of self-deception and lacking the faculties of critical thinking and reasoning, surely?

Anyway, it all looked interesting anyway, a couple of towns, two nights away, sunny, etc.

1)  I came across the spanish newspaper Sur's article about the hundreds of 15-M and Real Democracy Now! Spanish movement groups.  This lot think they are revolutionists by sitting in squares asking politely for "shorter working days, retirement at 65, and large dole payouts, and more elections".....wooo, such vision, seeking confrontation and asking the system to be their authority and helpers.  What they do not realise is that the system does not care about them, and that it cannot be fixed or repaired upon or within its current vibration.  If you do not like the rules and control, then why live in the cities?   These "revolutionists" (cough) do not realise that Spain is owned by the international bankers and EU / Bilderberg elitists, so whistling or chanting outside some village town hall is not going to do anything at all except appease for a short time the helplessness and frustration in each of them.

Tip to the above: no it is not, never has been, and if you really want to protest then stop paying tax and grow food, simple.  But many of these like it in Barcelona and Madrid because it is cool, there is lots of entertainment, and lots of good pigs to eat (see further).

I also read in the same paper that massive profit making energy companies are raising bills in the UK, here is a tip: Don't pay them, wait until they threaten to cut you off and then ring up and say you're a new 'occupier.' Give them a name and DOB of your choice (be creative) and set up a new account.  Repeat the process again in six months time.

2)  I was at the seaside town of Nerja at a quaint and pretty beach and then i went for lunch - note that all that is on the menus in Spain is pigs, booze, dairy, and caffeine, so it's kinda hard for me - but i found a place with an asparagus, tomato, and lettuce sandwich.  When it arrived I noticed none of it was fresh; all out of tins and freezers, so i told them nicely that this was not really what i was expecting - they had a hissy fit because they did not promise it was fresh, well I did not promise i would pay, so that ended that encounter.

Upon ordering I asked her to take out the eggs, mayonnaise, and cheese, and she looked at me like i was an alien, it was quite a picture, I felt a little like this:

Upon leaving this establishment, I noticed two chairs with a bin between them, everyone else thought this was normal.   I mean who would ever sit there?

4)  In Nerja centre, at a viewing point nearly ALL visitors goto, is a black 10 pointed star.  No reason, just there.

I have only given this spot twenty seconds of research and already found that in 2008 the Mayors secretary was shot in the face there, and that the Caja Granada bank has a black 10 pointed star above all cash (debt) machines.  I have better things to do so won't delve anymore.

5)   I saw wedding guests (from a posh doo mind) leave a church in Nerja and ALL the women were dressed like, well, whores.  They all were trying to look like the magazines,  tons of sludgy make up in the heat too, slutty clothes, and super high heels that made them walk like horses.  It all looked very wrong, It made me sad.......for a minute, and then I is as it is.

6)   On the way home, I saw a Z group of trails come out of 3 aircraft, and then 15 minutes later they turned into massive chemtrails that then turned into white cloud.

I have meditated upon these in altered states a few times, and even cleared a few, and the energy that comes from them is always a "preparing" or "barrier" energy - akin to a curtain at a theatre....I know no more.
ahh, back up the is all a but strange out there, some may think i didn't have a "nice time" - I am not sure what these words actually mean, what I will share is that my core inner balance was not rocked, i was internally at peace, I felt all that was beautiful, and I observed the (objective) toxic (to the planet and species) things that many see as normal.

It is as it is,  and we can only change it by knowing the self, and the world.

The evening I returned I had a dream I have had many times before in different flavors, one about the end of airplane travel, and in this dream I had to combine parts of "old" airplanes (current to us now) and mummyfy them into a massive Egyptian style sculpture / mummy.

On the awareness front, there is new great movie about how cancer is fixable and how the FDA treat it all as a business, and also there is info regarding the media black out regarding the Japanese radiation issue.

respect, and enjoy the lunar eclipse,


"Man clings to the known and fears to see what is unknown because then he will have "no place to lay his head". He prefers to build nests, Chinese boxes inside boxes, endlessly. Nests in which he can live in comparative safety, insulated from the hazards of reality. He does not wish to open his eyes and see things as they really are, infinite."
Carlo Suares, The Cipher of Genesis

“People convince themselves of their own lies, becoming victims of their own inventions as they begin to direct their lives by standards of behavior, ideas, feelings, or instincts which do not correspond to their inner reality. What is truly serious in this matter is that the individual loses all points of reference regarding what comprises truth, and what comprises lies. He becomes used to considering as true only that which is convenient for his personal interests; everything that is in opposition to his self-esteem or in conflict with already established prejudices, he considers false.”
John Baines

Thursday, 2 June 2011

Memory, Uniqueness, and Oneness.....

Hi all,

Over ten years ago I read a few of George RR Martin's fire and ice novels, they were magical fantasy, a sort of lord of the rings for grown ups, and I had pretty much "forgotten" about the stories and characters, but I could recall in my "mind" (thinking) that I had read the series if I needed, or wanted to.

Last week I saw that HBO (Time Warner...yuk) had made a tv series based on these very books and I watched a couple of episodes - what i observed got me thinking.  The first 20 minutes of viewing I could not remember the stories, and then woosh - it all came back to me; where I was when i was reading them, the characters energies, feelings, the whole stories, plots, and sub plots from all the books I read.  

Just where did all this information come from?  Without this tv viewing (prompt, nudge), these "memories" I would not of been able to recall if I desired to.

This got me recalling two experiences that have my being 100% "knowing" that memories are non local, and that ALL memories are stored and recorded.  Let us note first that modern scientists state all memories are stored in the brain just becuase certain neurons and areas activate when someone is recalling, but as we all know, science just looks at what they can see and measure, and all is related to matter.   How very limiting and silly.

My first experience was under the influence of Ayahuasca, I was "out of my body" and saw an infinite wall of postcards, each had a photo of me from my past - i could press play on each and it would then play a 10 second clip from one of these "memories."  These would play with associated feelings and emotions too, and most importantly, I had (conscious mind/waking life) "forgotten" nearly all of these.

My second experience was in a long 100 day retreat, where I was working with Franz Bardon's "Initation to Hermetics" book.  Some of the excercises worked on improving memory, e,g, concentrating in trance on walking around all the houses one lived in, or all of the school etc.  I also on my wall penned all of my main memories; hobbies, locations, jobs, events, lovers, friends, ups, downs, people, books, basically any poignant anything in my life trajectory.   What happened over the next few weeks during this solitude, which had no absorbing (Binah) of any people or information, was that all of my past memories "came back to me."  It was like all of my past was "here now" - accessible "now."   During this time older "memories" had no decaying feel to them, they did not feel far away or in the past.  This made dreams more prominent as my subconscious (or higher self, the words are not important) could use a larger store house of images (Yesod) to send my consciousness messages, lessons, and teachings, each packaged with the memory image's associated feelings.

Of course, after this process, and stopping the time-consuming techniques from the Franz Bardon book, this memory phenomena declined.....but it could be repeated.
One could even mention past lives and increase the soul strand trajectory, but this is covered my new book.

This all got me thinking about how unique we all are, and how all of our memories along with their associated feelings and emotions are within a single soul experience.  If we also bring in a persons karmic story and astrology blueprint, we are even more unique.  

Dogmatic Kabbalah splits the soul into 5 levels, with the highest almost unobtainable level being uniqueness and unity;

  • Yechidah - alone, uniqueness, the only thing, and absolute unity.
  • Chiah - vitality
  • Neshamah - breath / soul proper
  • Ruach - wind-spirit, intellectual spirit/rational soul
  • Nephesh - lower soul or vital spirit/soul
During contemplating all of this, I came across some new agers and hippy types spouting about "we are all one."   Well, it is, at a core essence level, and at a source level,  but we are also magnificently unique at an experience level, and it seems that this new age oneness trap is ensuring some people "jump off the ship" and not seek any attainment because "it is all"   Oneness is now big business, how can the Oneness online music store ask for money from another person if we are all one?  It is a trap, and one many are buying into daily.   (This is not to say the music here is bad, just an example).

A person can say we are all one, and feel intuitively we are all one, but to really know we are all one, a person really has to experience non-duality, which actually takes alot of work.   What I am saying is, to know something, one has to feel and experience it.  Just like in the Tree of Life, one has to have wisdom (Chokmah) AND understanding (Binah) to come to true Knowledge (The invisible Sephiroth, Daath, shown highlighted below).

I will have to agree with this section of the Cassiopeian Channelings, the sort of material I usually stay pretty clear from: 

Q: (L) What about Love?
A: What about it?
Q: (L) There are many teachings that are promulgated that Love is the key, the answer. They say that illumination and knowledge and what not can all be achieved through love.
A: The problem is not the term “love,” the problem is the interpretation of the term. Those on third density have a tendency to confuse the issue horribly. After all, they confuse many things as love. When the actual definition of love as you know it is not correct either. It is not necessarily a feeling that one has that can also be interpreted as an emotion, but rather, as we have told you before, the essence of light which is knowledge is love, and this has been corrupted when it is said that love leads to illumination. Love is Light is Knowledge. Love makes no sense when common definitions are used as they are in your environment. To love you must know. And to know is to have light. And to have light is to love. And to have knowledge is to love.

Read above as  "knowledge" being 100% inner "knowing" from experience or shock, and a combination of pure balance from wisdom AND understanding.

Even at a fractal level down to more dense vibrations, there are many Love and Lighter Oneness types who think Obama is great, and that the IMF, FDA, and WHO are all helping, and this lack of nuts and bolts mind knowledge (Hod) is not helpful either.  Truth is pure and neutral, whether it creates balance or inbalance within our 3d reality, and it seems that many of the oneness love and light crowd wish to only focus their attention on where they think balance is, and to ignore anything else.  In Qabalistic terms this could be deemed as hugging the Pillar of Mercy on the right, and to live with focused shared within both pillars takes much work.

Yes, our essence is all one, but there are issues that show that our species at a conscious and waking level is still very separated, e.g. the latest Louis Theroux documentary from the Miami Mega Jail note: use expat shield to obtain uk ip if outside uk.
Within this 3d reality we are only as united and in oneness at a species level as the most separated out of us all, and the above documentary will show just how separated within the illusion we currently are, and how much evolutionary work there is still to do.   

The trap is that people are just saying it is snow, without looking at the beauty of each snowflake, or looking to help any snowflakes that are causing evolutionary stagnation.

So, if we have this oneness source essence deep within each of us how can we experience it and feel and understand it?      

One can either lock themselves away and climb the Tree of Life (as shown in detail in the new book)......

Or learn to enable a non-duality state within mediation and turn it off again (for If one lived their physical waking life in TRUE non-duality they would not be able to function).  For one of many meditative examples on offer, a vast face negative existence focus could help (more theory of this at work of the chariot.

Either way, much work on the self is needed, and also work within the heart and pineal.

I think this quote from a man much wiser than I concludes and summarises this article very well:

"A man must first of all understand certain things. He has thousands of false ideas and false conceptions, chiefly about himself, and he must get rid of some of them before beginning to acquire anything new. Otherwise the new will be built on a wrong foundation and the result will be worse than before. To speak the truth is the most difficult thing in the world; one must study a great deal and for a long time in order to speak the truth. The wish alone is not enough. To speak the truth one must know what the truth is and what a lie is, and first of all in oneself. And this nobody wants to know."
- G.I. Gurdjieff