Saturday, 5 October 2013

Fireballs & Gifts Within Sadness

First a quick round up from some recent observations.  

My last conceptual fiction book is now looking less like fiction each week,  but at least AI is miles away and fictitious? 

The uber cool burning man festival is not as conscious and moral as it self promotes,  nor seems to be the the new iPhone.

The cool fashion cats in Barcelona might be getting a bit shaky soon,  and more whistleblowers have come out to spread the truth about the banking elite, just a few weeks before a USA debt ceiling rise, or the alternative default on their debt.   All analysts state the debt limit will rise, but with the decision just hours after the full moon eclipse in October, anything could happen.

Whatever you many think regarding any of the above, don't protest, and don't drive around Washington too fast.
Many people have now heard of comet ISON,  a roughly 5 miles square celestial body, hurtling near Mars at the moment, towards its swing around the sun around late November (if it doesn't break up).    

Soon this could be seen with the naked eye, and the last time a comet of this size was seen in our solar system was in 1680, a time of tax revolts and the American Indian pueblo revolts (for those astrologically inclined).

If this thing breaks up, it could create even more meteorites into our atmosphere in early 2014, the NASA article is unreadable.....because....heheh.....the US government are up to something and telling people they are "shut down" due to a squabble over health and funding.   1) They don't care about health - research food, pharma, and war.  2)  They have zillions of dollars - research central banks, black ops, corps, tax, and...war.

Sorry to digress, back on track -  The possibility of this sungrazing comet giving the earth meteoroid showers is interesting because since early 2012 there has been a steady rise of meteors and "earth falling debris."    note: image below from a march 2013 fireball.

After the mega fireball in Russia in February, in September a biggie fireball was seen in the sky in Alabama, and another big one in late September in Ohio killing two people. All the above have been confirmed by NASA.....along with others in September.

One can also simply view the American Metoer society to witness the 1000's of recent sightings and witnesses.  

Ask yourself why is this not on the news.

On the earth changes front, for years I have had some metaphysical signs towards New Zealand seeing changes in my lifetime - we will see.


Not too long ago, someone sent me a book written by a woman who had experienced a troubled life.  Toxic marriages, pain, and but was now "living in permanent bliss."  I read the short book and it seemed she had a system of blocking things out, suppressing things, and repeatedly mind controlling herself that everything was wonderful and that she was wonderful.

The alarm bells started to ring....not Defcon 1, but you could call it Yellow alert.

"As long as he is happy,"  "Are you happy?"   "Does he make you happy?"   "If X then you will be happy."    How many times have we all heard these phrases?   It seems humanity is on a perpetual strive towards the sensation of 'happiness,' whether that comes from entertainment, foolishness, folly, career, money, lovers, or the inner world.

What if this is all wrong?    Well something is wrong as sadness is shunned and looked at like an illness, "Oh no, Jerry is sad, eeek, is he alright?  Oh my god, he's not happy, what can we do!!!"  .....sort of chaos ensues if someone dares admit they are experiencing some sadness.   Funny how "I'm pissed off" is much more socially accepted than a true, deep, "I feel so sad."

“We’ve all met people who seem too sticky and gooey. They are “too nice” and sickeningly sweet. We sense that they are somehow being fake when we are around them and we feel we never really know them. They are, as the saying goes, “too good to be true.” These people are barricaded behind their mask or persona. They will deliberately avoid any kind of negative reaction or emotion. They refuse to be real and suffer the acceptance of their own dark side and this can be a dangerous thing.”
- Rebeca Eigen

Some humans equate connection to source to how happy one is, but maybe the spiritual law is related to how many experiences of the infinite one has had.    Infinity and eternity laugh in the face of human happiness spikes based on TV, celebrity, or apps.

For me, the law is that we should feel ALL emotions to their entirety; happiness, sadness, euphoria, despair - any emotion that comes to us we need to feel to really live it.....but 
to remain in a BALANCED state, our core within the middle pillar, our essence in EQUILIBRIUM.    

If we for examples sake, create a scale of -10 for super sad, 0 for indifferent, and +10 for super happy, then most humans are scared to goto a -6, and are even more scared of admitting to anyone they are in a -3 state.   Maybe humans are so unbalanced that diving into a feeling of sadness at -7 may scare them as they feel they might lose their grip on 0.

This negation of sadness creates a negative shadow in the collective, which manifests as crappy events (e.g parking tickets, dodgy laws, corruption) - but let us not digress too much.

What isn't acknowledged is that one can be a warm, happy, connected person, who is feeling and expressing deep sadness.

"Real happiness does not require an absence of pain, but rather that we consciously enter our pain, and enter it not headfirst but heartfirst, employing our attention like a miner’s 
headlamp. Put another way, when we compassionately approach our pain and cultivate intimacy with it, we find ourselves settling into a sobering happiness, a happiness that does not necessarily disintegrate just because we’re having a bad day. Just as embracing — not fusing with, but compassionately holding — our insecurity secures us, embracing our unhappiness (or any other painful state or condition) brings us into the realm of authentic happiness."
- Robert Augustus Marcu

One can feel love, connection, and sadness at the same time.

In fact, some say negative emotions are the key to well being, and others say that feeling bad is actually good.

“Sorrow prepares you for joy. It violently sweeps everything out of your house, so that new joy can find space to enter. It shakes the yellow leaves from the bough of your heart, so that fresh, green leaves can grow in their place. It pulls up the rotten roots, so that new roots hidden beneath have room to grow. Whatever sorrow shakes from your heart, far better things will take their place.”

Emotions are like friends - we have to accept them or we won’t have any.    

The idea of what we’re supposed to feel like dominates what we actually feel like. We are ghosts in our own bodies.

There’s nothing wrong with a good struggle.

Doubt is great.  Fear is great.  It means we get to prove to ourselves why we matter. 

Challenge is growth. No challenge is stagnation.   Prozac, and hours of television every night. It’s miserable and it shrinks souls. 

We are not supposed to be happy all the time, in America and the UK many take tablets to be "happy" - they have no balance and are missing out on feelings and sensations that are NATURAL.    "...So someone robbed your nan and burned down your home?"   "Haha, I feel soooo happy, I am sooo connected, I accept this with my heart completely....hahaha."    Do you get my point?

The 20th century gave to us the "what are you doing, what are you going to do?"  But now the 21st century is giving us "How happy are you?" - it's a trap.

"You,’ he said, ‘are a terribly real thing in a terribly false world, and that, I believe, is why you are in so much pain.’
Emily Autumn

Sorrow prepares you for joy. It violently sweeps everything out of your house, so that new joy can find space to enter. It shakes the yellow leaves from the bough of your heart, so that fresh, green leaves can grow in their place. It pulls up the rotten roots, so that new roots hidden beneath have room to grow. Whatever sorrow shakes from your heart, far better things will take their place.”

Many pretend to be happy, others mind control themselves so that they actually feel happy.   So one in a slave type job, with no free time, unfriendly happy?    There is a thin line between being positive and accepting, and being a fool....and this is not debated enough.  For example, In a warzone walking to the grocers with bombs falling, and passing dead bodies.....all the while affirming "I am happy"  It's a bit silly.

Maybe depression is a strong feedback sign for the species?  Well, depression is up, suicides are up, but nobody cares - the species doesn't see these as important signs......just buy a glossy paint brush of fluffy happiness and it all goes away.   

If one is truly at a high vibration they would feel the pain of the earth, the animals, and collective humanity, if one cannot feel this and is dancing in "permanent bliss" - they are a charlatan.   

Maybe happiness is Irrelevant?  You can have tremendous presence when you are the saddest person in the world. When you have lost something close to you - you can feel that sadness with an exquisite kind of beauty. In these moments happiness and unhappiness are in many ways irrelevant. This is the fierce terrible beauty of Human Presence. We are told we should be everything except your courageous self.

Sadness gives depth. Happiness gives height. Sadness gives roots. Happiness gives branches. Happiness is like a tree going into the sky, and sadness is like the roots going down into the womb of the earth. Both are needed, and the higher a tree goes, the deeper it goes, simultaneously. The bigger the tree, the bigger will be its roots. In fact, it is always in proportion. That's its balance.”  

Life, for many, is a futile attempt to become secure in a dimension that is intrinsically insecure. ......its the security that gives them the contentment.

"I am not saying to move in darkness forever. Light has it's own beauty and its own reason. If the seed remains in the dark forever and ever, and never comes up to receive the sun in the morning, it will be dead.   It has to go into darkness to sprout, to gather strength, to become vital, to be reborn, and then it has to come out and face the world and the light and the storm and the rains. It has to accept the challenge of the outside. But that challenge can only be accepted if you are deeply rooted within. ?"   

If one suppress or hides from feelings of sadness (often done by jumping into the dilution of large groups) one can get ill.  Emotions are linked to our immune system.  
Even the ancient Chinese medicine healing system has this to say of joy (related to the heart); 

"When one is excessively joyful, the spirit scatters and can no longer be stored," states the Lingshu (The Vital Axis). However, in TCM, joy refers to a states of agitation or overexcitement, rather than the more passive notion of deep contentment. The organ most affected is the heart. Over-stimulation can lead to problems of heart fire connected with such symptoms as feelings of agitation, insomnia and palpitations."

This system relates grief (sadness) to the lungs.  "The lungs are more directly involved with this emotion. A normal and healthy expression of grief can be expressed as sobbing that originates in the depths of the lungs - deep breathes and the expulsion of air with the sob. However, grief that remains unresolved and becomes chronic can create disharmony in the lungs, weakening the lung qi (vital energy). This in turn can interfere with the lung's function of circulating qi (vital energy) around the body."

Transfiguration is The One Goal Of Humanity.
"It is not to 'get rich', or 'become famous', or 'obtain power', or 'fall in love', or 'be happy', or 'to enjoy life' (which is really a living death), or 'to make it to heaven' (which is really 
not an eternal heaven at all), or 'to make the world a better place' (which cannot be done in this dualistic universe). The One Goal of Humanity, the sole purpose for our repeated 
incarnations is to find the Key that will get us out of here!"
The Gate Of Choice blog

Contentment is the enemy of invention, innovation, and change.

"Nietzsche was the one who did the job for me. At a certain moment in his life, the idea came to him of what he called “the love of your fate.” Whatever your fate is, whatever the hell happens, you say, “This is what I need.” It may look like a wreck, but go at it as though it were an opportunity, a challenge. If you bring love to that moment-not discouragement-you will find the strength is there. Any disaster that you can survive is an improvement in your character, your stature, and your life. What a privilege! This is when the spontaneity of your own nature will have a chance to flow.
Then, when looking back at your life, you will see that the moments which seemed to be great failures followed by wreckage were the incidents that shaped the life you have now. You’l see that this is really true. Nothing can happen to you that is not positive. Even though it looks and feels at the moment like a negative crisis, it is not. The crisis throws you back, and when you are required to exhibit strength, it comes.”
- Joseph Campbell

There can be grace, love, and divinity in deep sadness, there is nothing of note in false happiness.